Thursday, February 08, 2007
in a dilemma again... months ago, i sorted out everything and concluded that none of that was present... for either one of them... now i'm torn between the choice to step forward or to hide in the shadows... i dun wish to make a wrong decision and destroy everything... yet, i carn bring myself to live my life dae by dae, knowing that i din pick up the courage to say it...
i dun understand y this has to happen... such things hurt me the most and i dun want history to repeat itself... i am putting in my 101% to repress such things... it's realli exhausting... i dun wish to be affected by it but it keeps dwelling within me... =( maybe i'm reading too much into some stuff... but what if i was wrong? wat if i was right? argh... i'm seriously veri confused now and feeling veri lost now... i'm not satisfied with the status quo yet intransigent to go a step back or front... my head's cracking... argh...
it's simply deja vu to me again... and i let a chance slipped past the previous time... but circumstances are different... and the timing is simply not perfect... so wat shd i do??? maybe i shd juz leave it as it is... and let life carry on... i carn risk it... i am rather risk averse now... and i tink this may either be a regret or a right choice made when i look back at it in future... argh i'm seriously going nuts now...
once bitten, twice shy. somebody save me.
rotted-11:06 PM
