Sunday, June 01, 2008
Ok i've realised how long it has been since i last updated. I've really become such a lazy bum. Not that it's my choice lor. Today i finally decided to blog. And mainly coz my stupid com refuses to let me play dota. =X A reformat is long overdue for that bulky piece of randomly jumbled metal. Hopeless thing. Just now it refused to let me accept the offer from NUS. BEST!! Scared the hell outta me lar. =.= Summore so near the deadline oredi. I was slowly taking my time to accept and over the past few wks, i din even bother to go settle it. Srsly, everything i juz slowly and leisurely do le nowadays. Sometimes, i dun even bother to put in the effort lor.
One thing is driving lor. LOL. I'm a signaller that has to learn driving lor. On top of that, i dun exactly have a fully functional left knee. Pressing the clutch for so long is juz such a =.= thing for me. To compound the joke, i kena the instructor which is famed to be the fiercest one in the place. I have yet to suffer his wrath, but that wasn't the case for my poor platoonmates. The morbid looks on their faces after being taken by him says everything. xD So i muz say i'm very lucky then.
Neway, i shd stop talking abt army life le. Unsafe to do it online neway. One thing i can sae is that during free time inside i get rather bored nowadays. Lol and that is attributed to the absence of one of my certain entertainment tools. Xianz.
Started reading more lately. I hardly ever considered this option in the past. With the exception of Agatha Christie's books. At least this activity helps to slow down the rate of degradation of our brain which i muz sae is highly inevitable given wat i go thru now. Lol.
And somehow lately movies hardly appeal to me at all le. Even if one movie caught my eye, it ends up that i'll be so lazy to even go watch it. =.= At least that dae sort of persuaded myself to watch indiana jones. However, in the end, some of my platoonmates start to compare the shape of my head wif the crystal skull. The conclusion came to either a hybrid between a pharoah and an alien or juz simply a pharoah. I must say i'm nt exactly very flattered.
Monotonous life. No wonder there's nth much for me to blog. Having hardly any music to listen to for 5 whole days really stifles me quite a bit. At least now i get to slp quite well in camp coz i'm really so tired lately.
And i'm starting to reflect more on my bad habits lately. Nid to start to slowly correct them one by one. Unfortunately, i tink that there's a bit too much. Nvm slowly start one by one then. One of those that bug me a lot is that i tend to tink so much into a matter that cannot be changed juz by constantly thinking abt that matter. Simply a waste of energy and usually cause a sudden bout of emo. Read a book lately abt happiness. Actually i juz started and my speed is horribly slow. Somehow it caught my interest le. The solution it provided to this kind of prob seemed easy but i'm juz skeptical i guess. Maybe subconsciously i enjoy having my life in this kind of limbo either that or i'm juz simply sadistic and enjoys self-inflicted pain.
Previously i was coping wif juz emotional fatigue. Now physical one sets in too. Really takes the meaning out of many things i used to enjoy a lot. Maybe i juz nid to get used to it. I've been telling myself that for quite some time oredi. I guess it's coz of the sudden loss of so much that makes one so lost and forlorn.
Ok maybe i'll come back soon enuff. When i finally haf enuff things to blog abt. I muz sae that'll take some time. Happy waiting!!! Lol.
rotted-12:06 AM
