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Friday, April 20, 2007

avril lavigne's new album finally out liaoz... now listening to it... quite nice lor... of coz girlfriend is the funniest song lar... lol... still prefer under my skin though... argh 2dae ran 3km tired lyk shit liaoz... lol... damn long nvr run liaoz... still kena overtake by jnr... =P the song innocence juz played... sounds real gd... up till now 3rd best behind girlfriend and keep holding on... haha...

xianz... i still haven get out of the emo mode lar... bleah... even though not full on but still a bit -_- lar... though 2dae everything seems veri funny... dunno y leh... haha... prob 2dae better mood bah... and coz got chi high food bah... lol the college food seriously making me damn sick... LOL...

and my sore throat is near gone... wah... finally... i abstain frm chocs for abt 1 wk liaoz... aiyo... muz not eat too much or later napfa that time sore throat return then gg liaoz... haha... now dunno if i shd watch nightmare detective liaoz... read some reviews that gave it veri unkind ratings... lol... haha... nvm wait for more ratings b4 deciding... plus spiderman 3 coming out soon... haha...

oh ya... and sports dae on mon... the mon b4 labour dae lar... wah... liddat quite zai lor... haha... wonder if spiderman 3 previews on mon full yet anot... if not full can go watch... haha... then zhai...

and i juz found the lyrics for innocence by avril lavigne... omg the lyrics r so cool...

Innocence - Avril Lavigne

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

the lyrics so nice... =D

rotted-11:05 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007

updated the song abt a few hours early lar... actually a dae early... this song has no lyrics, juz an instrumental... i tink... haha... rather sad song... got it frm the negima anime... and i wun bother gg into the details of the anime again... haha... worth listening...

and my eyes r giving me quite a lot of trouble... onli my right eye though... lately it becomes easily tired and starts aching... lol... then i go see mirror it looks lyk the blood vessels r attacking the pupil... or is it the iris... hm... OH... the pupil... ok... that was lame... i srsly forgot... still went to wikipedia to check... neway, after the coffee bean drink that dae, the nxt dae i looked lyk a monster lar... one eye perfectly fine, the other lyk engulfed in some evil thing... lol... damn funny...

and speaking of coffee bean... i wasn't thinking right that dae i tink... i actually bought the ice blended wif extreme version, which simply gave more caffeine... -_- cldn't sleep until 3-4am i tink... lol... haha... and the first two hrs after the coffee was nearly dedicated to the loo... lol... i alwaes get weird reactions to caffeine...

and i dun feel naturally happy lately oredi... that's rather weird... maybe growing up does make one understand a lot more things... and wun haf such an optimistic outlook of life liaoz lor...

maybe i'll get out this stage... lol... =D

rotted-10:42 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

yup... the damned stars nvr shine for me... i nvr see the signs... at least not the correct signs... i alwaes lead myself to some damned cursed corner... great... juz great... maybe i shd realli juz dao... juz simply dao... save myself frm all these infuriating stuff...

i've gone crazy oredi... will suddenly out of no reason become damned emo... then no reason suddenly damn happy... then when i start doing hw, my mind will drift off... and it nvr drifts to somewhere nice... and it doesn't help when one has loads of cryptic dreams coming lyk avalanches in lyk juz a few daes... deprive all my sleep and make me feel worse...

then sometimes get damn emo then start crying lor... trust me... it doesn't make u feel better... it makes u feel worse... sometimes cry for 1 hr then realise how stupid i am... seriously there's nth i can do... completely nth... it sucks whenever i try to make things turn out better and i cannot do anything at all... i can onli watch things go down the drain... and fail terribly...

this sucks... this realli sucks... i'm realli speechless... destiny played me out... EVERY SINGLE TIME... fun rite? go on... i believe i determine my fate... and i will triumph... dun tink i'll be beaten...

i gotta tink straight... and seriously recover soon... i cannot go on lyk this... and this is nobody's fault... it's juz my own fault...

Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday

i hide all my hopes and dreams away simply because i noe they'll nvr realise... all i see is empty bubbles of speculation and guesswork... good to see but they nvr last... and most importantly, they aren't real... =D simple as that... perhaps i expect too much... i dunno...

i'm so bloody exhausted...

rotted-9:43 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

ok lately i've gotten a bit too high... lol dunno y... then i'll unknowingly talk louder and louder... lol esp during lectures... sry to all who i've irritated... lol i'll try to control myself... lol i lyk will suddenly start laughing and talking stupid stuff... lol...

prob coz i lately listening a lot of the music and lyrics ost... got the lame song at the start of the movie... and the buddha song by the gal... haley bennett... damn funny lar... life after blocks feel damn great lar... wif dota and so much stuff... haha...

and BoA's new song was released early online... wah... damn nice song wif a zai mtv... =p heard two times then obsessed liaoz... haha... tml got dota summore... then got mahjong frenzy liaoz... wonder if we'll play exponential... =D

then the bus arrival time prediction thing on my phone making me damn lazy liaoz lar... everytime go check the time liaoz then lag in class bench... in the end will miss bus by a few seconds or minutes... lol... damn lame...

nid to exercise more liaoz... lol... this time napfa cannot try anything funny... lol... plus this wk no pe... coz wasted time in audi instead... bleah... damn stupid... and i nvr do tutorials for daes liaoz... xD meng slack... ytd try a bit of complex 3 then give up liaoz... =D nvm let my partner do... lol... tink 2dae haf to sleep early liaoz... cannot tahan... plus tml lecture dae... dun wanna fall asleep too much there lol...

rotted-8:06 PM