Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
yup... the damned stars nvr shine for me... i nvr see the signs... at least not the correct signs... i alwaes lead myself to some damned cursed corner... great... juz great... maybe i shd realli juz dao... juz simply dao... save myself frm all these infuriating stuff...
i've gone crazy oredi... will suddenly out of no reason become damned emo... then no reason suddenly damn happy... then when i start doing hw, my mind will drift off... and it nvr drifts to somewhere nice... and it doesn't help when one has loads of cryptic dreams coming lyk avalanches in lyk juz a few daes... deprive all my sleep and make me feel worse...
then sometimes get damn emo then start crying lor... trust me... it doesn't make u feel better... it makes u feel worse... sometimes cry for 1 hr then realise how stupid i am... seriously there's nth i can do... completely nth... it sucks whenever i try to make things turn out better and i cannot do anything at all... i can onli watch things go down the drain... and fail terribly...
this sucks... this realli sucks... i'm realli speechless... destiny played me out... EVERY SINGLE TIME... fun rite? go on... i believe i determine my fate... and i will triumph... dun tink i'll be beaten...
i gotta tink straight... and seriously recover soon... i cannot go on lyk this... and this is nobody's fault... it's juz my own fault...
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need them again someday
i hide all my hopes and dreams away simply because i noe they'll nvr realise... all i see is empty bubbles of speculation and guesswork... good to see but they nvr last... and most importantly, they aren't real... =D simple as that... perhaps i expect too much... i dunno...
i'm so bloody exhausted...
rotted-9:43 PM
