Friday, January 09, 2009
they haunt me in my sleep... for the past week in camp, i think i only had one dreamless night... most of these practically had no meaning and i dun even bother... probably apart from the fact that a lot of my sleep were wasted... except for one dream last night... so at the end, it all accumulated to show up in this form... i was shaken for today... badly... i dun wanna face all these things again... it's a horrible curse... it's never easy... it never was... it hurts... it hurts to be able to feel... it feels so good to laugh until u feel numb... but when the numbness ebbs away, the pain seeps in... throwing in the towel looks like such an alluring option... maybe it'll be ok by tomorrow... maybe i'll continue lying and cheating and deluding myself tomorrow... bastard who's causing it all upon yourself... u deserve it all...
rotted-11:00 PM
